Perfectionism has been killin’ it lately. Literally.
I’ve always dealt with perfectionism but there are phases where it seems to come in full force. While it can be a good personality trait, perfectionism and procrastination usually go hand in hand. My high standards and fear of failure can block me, making me put something off for as long as possible.
When I feel like I won’t meet the high standards I set myself, I procrastinate. Which is pointless and only increases stress.
In this case, the “it” I’m talking about is blogging.
I feel like I’ve talked about this before but I’ve been feeling a little bit lost when it comes to my blog. Not that I’m uninspired or facing a creative block because, thankfully, I have lots of ideas written in my notebook, but I’m struggling to find the courage to start typing the words.
Why? You ask.
I have the idea in my head that I want to grow my blog and for that, I need to create helpful content, lengthy posts, my pictures need to be “perfect” and polished, as well as my writing. And what if my readers are not interested in these topics?
That fear of my content not being good enough is stopping me. It’s not that I’m not proud of it so far, I just want it to be better and people to like it.
And to be honest, I miss those days when I didn’t worry as much about how my pictures looked or if my content was helpful enough. I quite miss old school blogging.
I’ve missed what I’m feeling right now while typing what is going through my mind with no particular intention.
Sometimes we get so caught up with what we’re “supposed” to do that it takes the fun out of something.
I want to write about my daily routine, a book I’m enjoying, a new recipe I’ve tried and even my daily make up between personal development posts which I am also passionate about.
I don’t want to worry if every blog post is helpful or has enough words.
And I really can’t pick a niche. I really can’t. I can’t even decide the one thing I want to do “when I grow up” or what is my favorite book, let alone a niche for my blog. As long as I’m creating content I’m passionate about, that is okay. I guess you will be able to tell that.
I also want my blog to be more personal. I love getting to know and connect with the person behind a blog, and I’m not sure I’ve been doing that lately.
This takes me to the big question: why did I start blogging?
I started my blog so that I could have a platform to rant about what I enjoyed, to explore my creativity, to connect with like-minded people, to create an online diary of my life. As a painfully shy and introverted girl, I simply wanted a platform to express myself and chat about what I’m passionate about.
And I’m so glad that I decided to write this because it is filling me with inspiration. I suppose I woke the blogger in me. And it feels good.
If you are a blogger, why did you start your blog? If you’re not but would like to be one, why is that?